Thursday, December 30, 2010

I Am the Bread of Life

"Jesus said to them, 'I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.  But I said to you that you have seen me and yet do not believe.  All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out.  For I have come down from heaven, not to do my own will but the will of him who sent me.  And this is the will of him who sent me, that I should lose nothing of all that he has given me, but raise it up on the last day.  For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day.'"
"Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you.  Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day."

The Son of God says, "Whoever comes to me shall not hunger [and] whoever feeds on my flesh has eternal life".  He says, "Whoever believes in me shall never thirst [and] whoever drinks my blood has eternal life".
He says, "All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out.  For I have come to do the will of him who sent me, and this is the will of him who sent me, that I should lose nothing of all that he has given me".  So all the Father has given him will not be lost and whoever comes to him, he will never cast out.
The will of the Lord is that Jesus should lose nothing of all that the Lord has given him, but raise it up on the last day, and that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and be raised up on the last day.

My prayer is for revival.



Monday, December 27, 2010

marriage.

I really all the time just want to write about the deep stuff going on in my life.  I've been thinking all night, and as I wrote the first blog, about why I haven't written about more personal and spiritual matters.  My conclusion was lacking.  I've never really mastered the art of documenting my life day by day, as you can probably see.  I suppose I'm just still figuring out what a blog actually is, as well as how to make mine my own. I love to write.  However, I can only write about the things I am passionate about. 
So, what I have realized concerning the blog world tonight:
a. I'm really bad at being anyone other than myself; so documenting my day to day life probably won't happen anymore - I don't care about that enough.
b. I love to write; so let me share my heart.
c. I still love how much this blog has encouraged me to use my camera more, so I'll try to work that in somehow.
The hardest part about this blog is figuring out how I want to use it in my life. Bear with me; I'm learning. :)

To be honest, marriage has been the number one topic of thought in my mind this week.  I'm not the kind of girl to pursue thoughts of marriage and I never have been.  But right now, I feel it in my heart.  It's been such an amazing adventure with Chris these past almost eight months.  I never knew I could learn so much in such a short amount of time.  The Lord has been so good to us.  The Lord has spoken so much to me and to the both of us while we have been dating.  The most important thing, which was revealed to us before we started dating, praise the Lord, is to seek Him alone.  Chris is only a gift to me.  He is not in my life to fulfill all my needs and desires; he is simply a blessing to me.  He is a pleasure to be around - especially so often.  We know that we are here on this earth to seek the Lord with all that we are, so that is what we are trying to do - individually for now.  The Lord has been teaching me about himself and about myself for quite sometime.  Christopher reinforces the word of the Lord and encourages me in so many ways.  He is a wonderful leader for me, and the credit is the Lord's.  I don't, by any means, intend to speak as though we have it all figured out and we live our lives wholeheartedly for Christ at every moment.  We definitely have struggles, but praise the Lord that they have made us stronger in Him.  I never knew relationships could be like this, but it makes me so excited for marriage.  I learn more and more what love is and what love looks like everyday - mainly from my Lord.  I want to understand how much of a blessing it is to share my life with someone I love so much.  I'm in no rush to tie the knot, but I am very excited for that stage in my life.  I put my hope in the Lord and I put my trust in the Lord.  He will continue to show me His ways and what a joy it will be.  The Lord is my Love. He is my Rock and my Redeemer.  He is my Joy and my Peace. My Healer. My Husband.  I am excited about marriage on this earth, but nothing can compare to this relationship and marriage I have with my Lord.  He is all I need.  He is my soul's desire. My Beloved.

Christmas

Rhonda's gift
Lorrin's gift
 I really want to start crocheting warm goods for people, but not having a facebook has proven to be a problem.  I have no way of telling people that I can do this, and that I love to do this, and that I want to do this, ...and that I need some income... ;) If you have any ideas of how I can get the word out, please let me know!


Anna came to visit for a couple days last week.  We had a Christmas party at Patrick's house, which turned into a girl's night full of banana pancakes and Christmas lights in the park. We had an awesome night.  I was so glad Anna was there and that we got to hang out.  She has become such a beautiful person these past couple years.  We became the best of friends in the first grade and really haven't separated since.  She has always been such a joy in my life, and I honestly didn't think she could be any more amazing that she already was, but the Lord has proven different.  I admire her greatly in the way she loves the Lord.  She lives for Him and it is commendable.  She has surprised me these past few months with her words and her actions.  I feel as though I can see into her soul and it is pure beauty and goodness.


 Christmas Eve, my mom and I joined Chris and some of his family for dinner and presents.  It was the most delightful night I have had in a while.  You must understand, that Chris's grandmother is ninety-one years old and British.  She is such a wonderful person to be around.  She is very lively and alert; and quite hilarious too.  One of my favorite parts about being around her is that I have a new story to tell every time I leave.
When we walked in that night, I began to share polite conversation with Grandmother.  You must also understand that she is mostly blind.  So in this conversation, I bring up my new floral tights.  As I am showing them to her, she begins to tell me a story about her "younger years" when she was 50.  She told me she had just purchased some new black tights with snow flakes on them and wanted to show them off.  She said she put them on and walked into her living room where her son was watching tv and started to pose.  I wish I had a video of the way she poses for me when she wants to show her beauty.  She said that after a while of trying to get Roger's attention, she finally said, "Roger! How do you like my new tights?" with her eyes batting to the sky and her legs in some sort of showy position.  She said he responded with, "Are those tights?! I thought you had a bad case of the dandruff." :) Now put a British accent on that story and it will really come alive.
I have plenty of Grandmother's stories stored in my head; perhaps they will surface in later blogs.

 This is my sister's new puppy that recently broke her leg. She is adorable.
Maud.





Christmas day we went to my grandmother's house for lunch and a long-lived game of Chicken Foot.  Basically, I love my grandmother so much; I especially love when she cheats in Chicken Foot.  I wish I could see her more often.
chicken foot


 Yesterday, Corey wanted to go out to Chris's cabin to shoot his new gun, so we layered up and drove out to Leake County where we roasted hot dogs and ate smores. :) It was wonderful.  I love that old cabin.  I'll take pictures in the daylight of it this weekend for New Year's.


Tuesday, December 21, 2010

southern fried comics

 I dedicate this day to you, Anna Ray.  Elvis Costello in Calico Mall, the most amazing comic book store I have ever tripped upon, and "the world's best coffee" according to Gabby Mooney.  Congratulations, you did it, Coffee Depot!
Southern Fried Comics



Scarves and an Eclipse

Christmas party tonight.  It was great. :) Stuffed french bread and brownies.
After the party died down, I finished a scarf for my boyfriend's mom. I'm hoping she'll like it.
Now we're waiting on the lunar eclipse.

While we await the phenomenon of the year, I feel the need to share what has been on my heart for a few days.
-- My step-sister has been married for ten years now with a precious son to show for it - Morgan. Here is a picture. Or two.
I called my dad last week to discuss our Christmas plans with the family, and while we were on the phone, he mentioned that Leanna and Alex were looking to get a divorce.  Only mentioning it for the sake of keeping me informed was not enough for me.  My heart broke when I heard those words.  This child is so full of life and interested in everything the world has to offer him.  Innocence.  I wonder about divorce probably more than the average twenty-year-old.  My parent's divorce impacted my life more than they will ever know, and I hurt for every child that has to cope with it.  I often wonder what leads to divorce.  I know there is a different reason for every couple, but I still feel like the excuses are void (aside from adultery).  I understand that I am not married, and I haven't experienced the troubles of marriage, but I don't believe that makes me ignorant to the fact that divorce is not holy.  This is not to say that people cannot be blessed from a divorce, because the Lord works for our good, which is evident in the second marriage of my father.  However, divorce seems to me like a selfish ambition in many cases.  I am not judging anyone who has ever been divorced by any means.  My heart does go out to the children that are forced to deal with their parent's decision to separate their family.  I honestly don't understand how it works - when you become wed, you become one flesh.  Divorce seems to me as though you are cutting yourself in half.  Whatever happened to "for better or for worse"?  Marriage is a covenant with God and when you declare those words to Him, you are making a promise that should not be broken.  Basically, I just wish I could talk to anyone who is thinking of getting a divorce to remind them of the reasons they married their spouse and the vows they made before that spouse and the Lord.  I really don't want this to sound judgmental, because we are blessed with grace beyond our comprehension.  I just wish divorce could be prevented.  I wish marriage was permanent, like our marriage to the Lord.  This child does not deserve to deal with this, but I know the Lord will work through it.  All I can do is pray to my Father that He will restore this family and bless Leanna for being the amazing wife and mother she has been for so many years.  She is wonderful.

My biggest desire right now is to have faith that can quite literally move mountains.
It is worth sharing how amazing it is that we can ADORE the Lord. Oh, Come let us adore Him. How powerful.  What an honor - to give every part of me to gaze upon the Lord in adoration.

Also, I shall share the meaning of my blog title.  I am an ember in this world, striving to light the other coals with the love of God.  I am fed by and I produce the Fruit of the Spirit.  The Fruit gives me strength and wisdom to journey on.  We'll do this together.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Test Run

I've wanted a blog for sometime now but never knew what it entailed.  I recently moved into an apartment with an incredible crafty girl whose dreams are similar to mine.  As we sat crocheting on the couch this morning, she told me she thought I should get a blog.  We began to talk more about it, and it quickly became an encouraging and inspiring proposal.  All that to say, I have created this blog as an attempt to chase after the things I love to do - to engage in photography, to edify followers, to journal life, and to be accountable for my pursuits of joy.  We'll see how this goes.  My name is Erin.