I wait for the Lord.
I had such an abundance of love in my heart before last week. What happened, Father? I want it back. It's who I am. It's who I was created to be. I want it back.
My desire is for the goodness of the Lord to be made known. In all I do, I desire to bring glory to his name. In my relationships - in all my actions.
I know who I am. My heart isn't quite lining up with what I know of myself. Something is a little off. But I can't put my finger on it. All I can do is give it to the Lord, which is what I've been doing since this time last week. I keep waiting. I know there is a reason. I know there is a purpose. I will wait until it is revealed - because I am not in control and I do not desire to be in control.
Obedience. As much as it hurts.